User blog comment:Thomperfan/You know something weird?/@comment-4618045-20171119030642

It’s human nature. At the time we write something, we get so wrapped up in our ideas that it can be challenging to examine everything in an objective light. The ideas are so fresh and clear in our minds, that we convince ourselves that we’re perfectly translating that vivid image into decent prose that the audience will understand. We may get proud when we finally get our stories out there and people react to it (whether positively or negatively). Hindsight comes after the fact, once we’ve moved on from that idea and into another one. With time comes distance in emotion and increased perspective.

I am no exception to this phenomenon.

I have spent the last ten months writing one particular Loud House fanfic. It’s now 49 chapters and close to 250k words. I can count the number of chapters left on one hand and I intend to see it through to completion. But just as the story has gone through many twists and turns, so has the show. I look back on the earlier chapters to see how different they are from the more recent chapters. Whereas the early chapters are only 2-3 thousand words, the more recent chapters have been double or triple that length. And content? Well, the episodes that aired in 2017 make it jaw dropping for me to read the story, of how much it has veered off the path of what the show is in many aspects. Even though this is stuff that happens later in the story, they were ideas I planned way back in January when I started, which has given me more than enough time to reflect on my past mindset. Even though I don’t plan on making changes now, I do sometimes look back on ideas I thought were great in January and regret how they veer so much away from the show and characters I’m trying to represent.