User blog:AustinDR/Going on Hiatus

OK, so I'm going to put SI on hiatus for now, and no, it isn't because of any negative reception; I genuinely find it difficult to continue the story. While a story like "Luan's Problem" was always meant to be a short story, I honestly found the current version of SI more complicated as everything won't be resolved in a short amount of time. This isn't me being a "drama queen" as many of claim I am. Everything that I had been saying was true; at times, I felt ashamed of the story as I felt that it wasn't of the same caliber as UnderratedHero's stories, or That Engineer's Syngesophobia of which SI was largely inspired. Now SI was never meant to be Requiem or Syngesophobia (god, that's hard to spell); it was always my own thing, but I will confess that the story is weak. Let's not beat around the bush here, the story is weak in some aspects. As for some of the decisions I made with the story, I might make a separate blog explaining all of my reasons for these choices, but I will assure everyone who cares that the story is by no means a revenge fic or was made out of spite for NSL. I didn't hate the episode, but no matter how many times I point that out, many are still convinced that they are right. Now, keep in mind, this was the first time that I have done a project as big as SI, and I didn't receive any help or direction from anyone else. Other than that, I'm a beginning writer. I have written other stories prior to this one (some I wouldn't recommend reading unless you're into weird stuff), but I overall never received any help for writing the story. And yet, many state that the story is terrible, and/or recommend reading Syngesophobia. Now, as I have said  Ilove the story, but I don't appreciate being blown off as some ingrate. I mean no ill will towards That Engineer, but at the very least in SI everything is starting to turn in the sisters' favor. In fact, Lola and Lana get defended by their teacher, and they are slowly starting to receive less hatred from the students as they realize that they are not entirely to blame for Lincoln's death. If this was a revenge fic as many would say that it is, the teacher would've condoned her students bullying the twins.

With descriptions, well I'm sorry, but I can't fully describe the situation at hand. Sometimes I give too much description as to what happens, sometimes less, but I felt that it worked here, because I wanted to leave the more grim scenes to the reader's interpretation. Now, for people who care for stuff like this, I'm sorry, but I am not That Engineer or UnderratedHero. They are able to succeed where I can't, but I shouldn't be made to feel that I need to reach their standard in order to be good. Frankly, I didn't understand what many saw in my story at first, but it seems that it's enjoying a good bit of popularity among some fans of the show, so I won't complain. Even "Luan's Problem" got recommended on the Loud House's Fan Recs page, and that was especially surprising as I didn't see it as a good story. Overall, I am not cancelling the story (well, I'm planning on completely retconning it and restarting from scratch), but I am putting it on hiatus for the time being.