User blog:AndrewBrauer/Announcment

Hey dudes Andrew Brauer here, today I'm making a serious blog to talk about something important that will change things for me on this wiki.

This has been something I've had on my mind for a while now and it involves the current state of this website. Ever since I joined the wiki back in December last year, I viewed this place as an escape from my life I was dealing with depression from my overworked college schedule, the pressure I had to improve my grades from my family, and my antisocial behavior making me feel like I can't get along with anyone on my campus. Everytime I attended an event I was always alone and felt out of place with what was going on, which led me to leave early and spend the rest of my night crying in my dorm from feeling so lonely. It's difficult for me to get along with new people in real life, I have this notion that if I approach someone new I'll be rejected and treated harshly just for introducing myself only because of how I sound or look. It makes me feel incomplete with the world, like how I'm not manly enough for the stuff guys typically enjoy but also not interested in the things that would classify me as a nerd or geek, for me I just feel like a blank slate who's only into his own things that very few people are into. All I wanted to do was stay in my dorm and shut myself out from reality, staying in bed and just ignoring what was going on in the world because to me I felt like the world didn't want to know who I was. But as I got more into The Loud House, I discovered the wiki for this show thanks to my best friend Yoshi who was well known on here for his fanfics and had received plenty of praises for his work, previously I use to do a lot of fanfic writing for this other wiki I was a part of years ago, before I gave up to focus more on finishing up high school. I saw the show and this wiki has my chance to feel happy again, meet new people and get back into one of the passions I had years ago; writing.

Things were great on here for a while, even during episodes like No Such Luck and Brawl in the Family I still viewed this website as a nice community for fans of The Loud House. But things changed during the summer and suddenly I felt unsure of how much I enjoyed being on here, there were new members showing up and they turned this place into something else. I now felt like giving my honest detailed opinion about an episode was like playing Russian Roulette, where the chances of me getting attacked for my thoughts were getting more and more common. Now it became this unspoken rule where you have to agree with the majority on an episode, or else you'll be bullied for it. So if everyone hated No Such Luck then you had to hate it as well, or if everyone loved Garage Banned then you had to love it too. And it all had to be where you give the most simple opinion ever where you talk about the positives and nothing else, or in the case of No Such Luck talk about the negatives and nothing else. When I saw Garage Banned I found the episode mediocre and mentioned how I hated the scene with Luna, Luan and Lincoln. immediately after I said that everyone complained to me about my opinion on this episode, saying I was a Luna crybaby who doesn't know what OOC actually means, hates the episode only because of this scene, and just wants Luna to be an angel to everyone... really? First off this my opinion, and I did state other things I didn't like in the episode. Second is that even if someone gives a negative opinion you should still respect their thoughts, even if you want to debate with them do it in a friendly way that shows that you understand why they don't like the episode. But that doesn't seem to go into the mindset of most of the users on here, which means now I'll be the first thing that comes up to anyone whenever they mention "taking the show too seriously" to someone.

This also applies to my stories too, my past few stories I've put out have received more negative feedback than I expected with some even labeling my fanfic Whipped as one of the worst fanfics ever written. I've learned to accept the hate at first, but after a while it was getting to me as now other users have been using Whipped as an example of how NOT to write a fanfic, then my rewrite of Making the Case started to garner negative feedback for being too depressing and how I shouldn't have changed the original to begin with as I only made it worse. This made me question whether or not my writing was actually good or if the friends I've made on here were only lying to me just because I couldn't accept criticisms about my work, the negativity was getting to me as I was slowly becoming the wiki's punching bag for anyone to use. So enough was enough, I was sick and tired of all the hate I was getting just for being myself, this is one of my biggest fears and why I'm so antisocial in the real world only it turns out that this website was never an escape from my life at all.

So I'm making this blog to announce my departure from the wiki, I'll only be on here to finish any unfinished fanfics I started with In The Name of Loud and Full House, although I did just finish It's All Loud and Clear Now Part 1. I'll also only be on here to get images for the Talking Loud podcast I run on YouTube, and I'll be on here to post my Ranked blogs for Season 2 and possibly Season 1. Otherwise, all of my fanfics will be moved onto my deviantart account for any of you who want to read them on there, everything I write about will be on deviantart if you want to watch me on there. I feel that deviantart is a more friendly community for fans of The Loud House as I've met some really awesome people on there, and feel more comfortable on that website than on here. Also, even though I am leaving do not edit my profile page I would like to keep it the way it is just in case I return onto this wiki.

Before I finish this, I would like to give a special thanks to some of you on here for sticking up for me and being really great friends. Thanks to YoshiRocker13, TMNT1987Dude, TheFirstVoslian, Muppetspot, TrevorPhillips, and XxSkilletSaviorxX for working with me, supporting me, or just by talking with me and being my friend. You guys are awesome and I'm so grateful getting to know you.

But for now, this is goodbye I hope this place will become the wiki I once knew when I joined.