User blog:Curious Poker Chip/Apologies and Closing Statement

My name is Tyler, and I am way too opinionated. I am not sure exactly why, but somehow through my life, my opinionated side of myself has manifested into this ugly part of myself. I act in a lot of ways considerably younger than my actual age, especially online and after giving it a lot of thought, I feel as though the only way to ever put a stop to this is to just swallow my pride and apologize.

Firstly, I want to express my deepest, sincerest apologies to anyone of whom that I said mean, offensive, crappy things towards, including FreeSpirit and Positron and DarkSuicune and anyone else of whom I forgot about who I said nasty things about or towards. Trust me when I saw that what I was trying to do was never out of a place of hatred or bigotry. Rather, I care deeply about children and what they see on television. I am also a strong advocate of not having them watch entertainment that is strongly adult, like R-rated horror movies. But maybe in this case, I cared too much and let it cloud my judgment. Remember that every user on this and every other Wiki is a person. A person with feelings. Every single thing you say on the Internet is permanent, like you writing with a Sharpie or in cement and no matter what you do, it's there forever. I failed to realize this, even though I know this principal strongly. Again, if my conduct in the past could've been perceived from looking in as "homophobic", believe me that was not my intention in the slightest.

I should make it clear that I still hold some opinions I have said in the past, namely that I don't like the romantic relationship between Luna and Sam or that I feel LGBT relationships do not belong in children's media. Of course, this is not a peeing competition about whether or not this opinion is right because in the end, it really doesn't matter. People are so diverse and different that petty things like these opinions and complaining about them are very trivial. It's just so pointless to continue talking about stuff like this.

I don't want the name Curious Poker Chip to go down in history as a laughingstock, a pariah, a name or a figure that is hated, because believe me that is the last thing I would ever want. I am just a silly guy who likes Loud House despite having some gripes with it. I do love it despite its blemishes.

But what really got me was that the stuff I was complaining about on this Wiki, and the whole reason it was started was in response to the stuff I said. When I found that out, I had nothing to say. Me being the unknowing catalyst that started the "fire", so to speak, was just something I can't believe that happened.

Jesus Christ preached a message of peace and love, but I was not peaceful or loving. Again, from the bottom of my heart, I apologize to everyone of whom I wronged in the past, it was rather stupid of me to do that and I really don't want to be affiliated with that anymore. But the only way that we learn and the only way that we grow as people are if we ourselves find the fault in ourselves and learn to correct it. It's an internal struggle and an unending one. I am still learning as an individual all the time. Now I will apply what Michael Jackson penned so perfectly in his song "Man in the Mirror":

If you want to make the world a better place, take a look at yourself and make the change.

I am sorry.

P.S.: If the higher-ups on The Loud House Wiki decide to relinquish my infinite ban, just know that I probably will not be on this site very much anymore, and of course, I will NEVER post my opinions in comments of episodes. I actually would kinda prefer it if I stayed banned; I'm okay with it, but hey that's completely up to you guys. Just know that I will still on the Internet through my Twitter (@IntrepidMegan) and my DeviantART (Curious-Poker-Chip) and I will definitely be on other Wikis, including the American Idol Wiki where I was recently made admin coming into the eighteenth season. So yeah, this is probably my endgame.

Every new beginning comes from some other beginning end.