User blog:CircularBoat742/Being Honest With Everyone Here Why I Was Being Inactive For Quite Some Time

'​Hey everybody, CircularBoat742 here and long time no see. Yeah it's been a while since I last posted and I notice it seems like some people where concerned about me (only some), so I wanna reassure that i'm not dead, nor did I quit the wiki without telling. I've been going through a lot of stuff lately, and no it isn't the lame excuse that i was "really busy with school." I mean that was one factor of why i've been inactive but there's some other reasons too. One my phone has been in repairs and all that. My phone was malfunctioning alot and I had to turn it in to replace it. took about a month but I have my phone now. Second, schoolwork. The way my school works is that they like to push limits when it comes to learning, and since i'm about to enter high school, it's gone beyond that limit, giving us extra hard work and lots more projects, and thirdly....well.....this is where the majority of my reasoning and honesty comes into play. It's a long story so prepare.'

'​I witnessed a death in front of me. It was in the middle of December, before christmas and I was walking to my friends when this guy walked past me, going for some other location. We were gonna cross the street and I was about to when I dropped something. As I went to go pick up my item, the other guy went to cross the street. Then..I started to hear honking. Thinking it was a douchbag driver honking at another car or the guy, so I resumed getting my item, then I hear more of it and this time I looked up. It was the wrong moment for me to look up...because when I looked up, I had a front row seat witnessing a car spinning out of control because of ice and ramming into the guy. I heard bones crunch and get crushed, while I saw blood spurt from the guy and onto the other cars. The car that hit him was going at a speed that would be letal if hit and this poor guy was the victim. Not knowing what to do, I started running back home, not looking back to the carnage that just happened. It took me 10 minutes to get back home and when I finally did, I started hyperventilating. My mom came over and asked what's wrong and I told her everything. She was shocked and started calming me down. I just couldn't. I couldn't sleep at all that night, being terrified I would have a night terror. This repeated for the next couple of days and my mom took me to a therapist. I told the therapist what I witnessed and told me that I should just try doing other stuff to make my mind think of other things. It took a while for it to work and it's still not fully but i'm starting to feel a bit better'

'​So yeah, that's why I wasn't on the wiki for a while, because of those three reasons, but trust me when I say this, I will be back fully. Once I finally take my mind off that one fateful day, I can start resuming on here. I just wanted to tell my honest reasons why I was gone for this long. I hope you guys understand...'