User blog:AustinDR/Another Apology

Look, I have been thinking, and as of the latest events, the one thing that I have to say is...I'm sorry. If I come off as inconsiderate and/or insensitive whenever I talk with any of you guys, I don't intend it. I also apologize if there were any moments when I would make myself out to be a hypocrite when I constantly flip flop my opinions. I don't know; at some points, I feel that if I have a different opinion on some things, I would change mine to fit with the general consensus. Sometimes whenever I think on something, I tend to put a lot of thought into how I would respond. Because of that, there are several inconsistencies that I would unintentionally say, thus making me come off as an unreliable source as I constantly change how I feel about anything in general. I know it's annoying; it's a hobby of mine that I am trying to fix.

I also apologize I come off as a jerk at times. Because of that, I can see hoiw some would perceive me as being "thick skulled." Look, I was wrong in a lot of things, much like with the Engineer's story. While I still don't necessarily find it the best story, I was wrong to give a half-arsed explanation for my issues with the story. Like with suggesting for the author to make OCs. That was a dumb explanation, I admit it now. Maybe if I chose my words carefully of how I felt about the story, none of this would've happened. Now with a dark fic, while I do agree that a fanfic doesn't have to be as close to the show it was based on, my only gripe with dark fics is that some go over the top with their dark subject matter. I would have to ultimately say that if you're going to do a dark fic on a show like this, at least give a reason for why this is happening. With Engineer's story, the whole purpose is deconstructing the cartoony fighting in the series, but it's also intended to give each of the sisters some form of redemption. Look, I was wrong to like one aspect of the story and not the other half; I still feel the sisters don't deserve any sympathy, but that's just me. Just because I don't like the story as much as others do, that does not mean that you shouldn't. Take my words with a grain of salt; all I'm saying is that the Engineer was right in his assumption that I didn't completely understand the story. While I didn't really appreciate his heated comment over on another site, at the very least, yes, I get what was wrong with my review. I'm not asking for forgiveness on that aspect, but I am admitting that I was wrong. Both Syngesophobia and Requiem I don't really despise; mainly I just got annoyed that these stories are generally talked about when I feel that other stories should get some sort of notoriety. For instance, there's Omega Ultra's story Stories and Tales from Dimension 63. I genuinely liked the story because it does something different that being Lincoln and his female counterpart switching places and quantum psychics and dimensional jumping. I guess my gripe with those other two stories is the fact that they don't try to do anything different. They use the same setting for the show, but with more realistic circumstances. This isn't bad in the slightest, but I feel if you're going to make a story, at the very least, do something different with the setting. Change it up. I don't mean that as an offense, but I guess that was why I felt that Requiem was funny. While I understand it's a serious story, it comes off as pretty cheesy in some places, as well as emotionally contrived.

If I lied to anyone of you, I am greatly sorry for that as well. I don't want any drama to happen on here because it'll only just drag everyone down. Because of that, if you really want me to, I can leave. Once again, I'm sorry for being a very polarizing individual who comes off as hypocritical or whatever.