User blog:LoudFanWolf/Lucy gets crushed

Lucy gets crushed, a story by LoudFanWolf.

It was Monday, after school at the Loud House, and Lucy Loud was on a mission. It had been a couple days since Derek's suicide attempt, and while he and most of the Loud family had recovered from that event, there was still one Loud kid who was still hurting. That kid being Lucy Loud, the 8 year old goth girl of the Loud family, and the 8 year old goth girl who was hopelessly in love with Derek Gabriel. For about 3 months now, Lucy Loud has had a massive crush on the high school junior, and while some might consider it to be "puppy love," Lucy Loud always thought  their love was real, and she always hoped f0r the day where she would her love for Derek, and he  would love her back. But today was not that day, in fact, Lucy did not want to to Derek about love, in fact, Lucy wanted to talk to Derek about something completely different, and she was going to make sure that he was going to listen to her no matter what.

Speaking of Derek; he, Luna, and Lincoln were in the living room playing Rock Band, with Luna on guitar, Derek on vocals, and Lincoln on drums. They were in the middle of pperforming/playing one of the games hardest songs, ''Chop Suey by System of a Down. ''Luna and Lincoln were put off at first when were Derek suggested that they try beat the song at at least 95%, and both of them gave him a weird look atthe suggestion. Why would Derek want to rock out to a song that contained lyrics such as "self righteous suicide" despite recent events? Derek knew what their looks meant and said "Mates, I told you, I'm over it now, and I'm never going to even think about doing it ever again, I swear." Derek raised his right hand as sign that he was telling the truth,  the whole truth, and nothing but the truth.

Luna and Lincoln nodded, convinced that their friend/brother was telling the truth and put the song on to perform/play. As the song started. it was then that Lucy Loud was wlking down tthe stairs, toward the lving room, itending to rudely interrupt their rocking, and ask Derek if she could speak to him privately. Lucy noticed then heard the song Chop Suey, being played on what she assumed was the game Lincoln, Derek, and Luna wer playing.

Lucy loved this song. Being a goth girl, she was practically inclined to love metal, and while sheknew Derek didn;t like all metal, she knew also like bands such as Evanescence, Nirvana, and AC/DC, which were bands that she liked as well o our great chemistry," Lucy thought. As Derek started sing/yelling th fast paced song, lucy headbanged, while also being mesmierized by her beloved's metal singing voice. Soon, the song slowed, and Lucy then heard Derek sing the lyrics "self righteous suicide" and she suddenly had a flashback to how she felt Luna, Lincoln, and Lisa broke the news about Derek's suicide attempt, just a few days before. Lucy then snapped out of it, all of her thoughts returning to her current objective: gettting Derek alone for some private time.

Soon the song ended, and Lincoln, Luna, and Derek all high fived as thye reached their goal of completing the song at 95%. While they were celebrating, Luccy appeared to them, seemingly out of nowhere.

"Hey, Derk."

While Lincoln and both jumped and let out a short scream at her sudden appearance, Derek just smiled, for he had gotten used to Lucy's random appearances. "Hey Lucy Lou," Derek said, calling Lucy by the nickname that he had given her "what's up?"

"Derk, um, can I talk to you, um, privately, please?" Lucy asked the high school junior, a bit of nervousness in her voice.

"Sure thing, Luce." He turned back to his bandmates and said "you two keep playing, I'll be right back." Luna and Lincoln both gave Derek a thumbs up before they went back to playing.

Derek followed Lucy up to her and Lynn's bedroom; Lucy knew that she and Derek would have more privacy there due to her roomate being away at soccer practice at that time. Derek and Lucy plopped down on the latter's bed, with Derek turning his head towards her and asking "So, what do you want to talk about, Lucy?"

Lucy then turned her face away from Derek, which caught him off guard. "Lucy," Derek asked, "Is something wrong? What do we need to talk about?"

Lucy then turned to face her crush, and even if her eyes were covered by her black bangs, Derek could still tell that she was boiling mad.

"What do we need to talk about!?" Lucy mimicked him. "WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT YOU, YOU IDIOT!!!"

Derek  leaned back in surprise and then put both his hands up in a "I surrender" pose. "WOAH, WOAH, WOAH! Calm down, Luce! What did I do?"

"What did I do!?" Lucy mimicked Derek again before shouting, inches from Derek's face "YOU ALMOST TRIED TO KILL YOURSELF A COUPLE DAYS AGO, YOU BIG, LOVABLE, IDIOT!"

Lucy then backed away from rek's face, as he put his hands down, look down at the floor  "Oh, yeah," Derek muttered glumly.

A few seconds of swkward slence, passed, givng Lucy a chance to calm down, before Derek spoke up. "Look, Lucy, I'm really sorry, sweetheart. I didn't know what I was thinking that week, I never thought about you, Luny, Lynnie, or the rest of you, and I really should have."

"You're darn right, you should have." Lucy said sternly, she said then scooted closer to Derek, close to face again. "Do you have any IDEA how bad we would've have felt if you had killed yourself? DO YOU KNOW HOW BAD I WOULD HAVE FELT!?" Lucy screamed, tears pouring down her face. "WE LOVE YOU, DERK! I LOVE YOU! I-" Lucy the began to take deep breaths as Derek began to hold her in his arms, rock her, and shh her.

"I know Lucy, I know. I love you too, and I;m really sorry, but I promise, I;m never going to even think about doing that again." Derek whispered into Lucy's ear as she continued to sob into his shirt.

The 8 year old goth looked up at the high school junior, her pale face wet with tears. "You promise?" she asked.

"Cross my heart, Lucy Lou." Derek said while crossing himself.

"Okay, I just don't want to ever think about losing you again." Lucy said as she sank back into Derek embrace and softly cried some more.

Derek conitnued to comfort the 8 year old, rubbing her back,rocking her other hand through her black hair, and whipsering sweet nothings to her as she cried. After a couple minutes Derek then began to a sing a song that he and Lucy bioth loved. It was the song When You Can't Sleep at Night by Of Mice and Men

''Here in this world I’m awake with mistakes But its love that keeps fueling me Fueling me''

''Pretty little lady with swollen eyes Would you show them to me? I know I’m not that perfect But you stay awhile Baby, then you will see''

Lucy slwly began to stop crying as she listened to Derek softly singing to her, listening and feeling every word that was sung, as if all the lyrics were aimed directly at her.

''Miles away I can still feel you Lay your head down on my embrace My embrace Far away''

''Pretty little lady with swollen eyes Would you show them to me? I know I’m not that perfect But you stay awhile Baby, then you will see''

''Don’t give up, baby I know that its shaky Just let love consume us Consume us''

''Here in this world I’m awake with mistakes But its love that keeps fueling me Fueling me to love you''

''Pretty little lady with swollen eyes Would you show them to me? I know I’m not that perfect But you stay awhile Baby, then you will see''

After he finished singing, Derek looked at Lucy a grin plastered on her face. "Feeling better now, Lucy Lou?"

"Yeah," she replied "thanks for talking and staying with me, Derk."

"No problem, Luce" Derek said as hugged her "anything for the ones I love."

Lucy slightly stiffened. Love? Does that mean he actually DOES love me?' Lucy thought.

Derek and Lucy thn broke their hug, and Derek giot off the latters bed before saying "if you ever need anything else, just cll me and I'll be here like that." Derek said with a snap of his fingers.

Lucy giggled and said "thanks, Derk."

"No problem, Lucy Lou," Derek said before walking out the door and shutting it, knowing that Lucy loved the darkness of her room.

Lucy sat in the silence of her room for a few moments, and then she thought about the days events so far, how she felt during them, and what said about love earlier, before she finally made her decision.

"That's it," she thought "I'm going to tell Derek how I feel tomorrow if its the last thing I do."