User blog:AustinDR/Should I, Or Should I Not?

I've already told my deviantART watchers this, so I feel I should say it here as well: should I just scrap the Shattered Innocence idea. I'm already 5 chapters in, but it's excruciating having to come up with something new, because it either doesn't meet the person's expectations, or it isn't good enough. I am just getting tired of several LH fans over at FF calling me out as a "sister hater" no matter how many times I state that I don't. Why do I constantly get these comments? Why, is it because Lynn gets the worst out of the aftermath of Lincoln's death? I didn't do that because I hated her, but I wanted to convey that she would feel the most guilty for treating Lincoln like he's a jinx. I know that many fans like Lynn, but I never meant to make it seem that I hated her. I don't.

I just get tired of trying to explain that the point of the story is that it delves into the fears that many parents have; their children getting taken from under their noses, and they're powerless to do anything about it. I was wanting to make the story more realistic as a means of having the family feel guilty for what they had done to Lincoln. Keep in mind, I didn't hate "NSL" but I knew that several people do. So, I was wanting to make a story around it that didn't rely on Lincoln killing himself or whatnot. I mean, Lincoln has to share a house with ten sisters; if anything, he would've ended it all years ago. Additionally, I was trying to convey how one bad decision could lead to devastating consequences. It's obvious that not many people read my story on this site. Is it because it's too dark? I'll be the first to admit that I don't tend to write happy stories, but I just felt bad that I was seemingly getting ignored for pinning the story. Sure, I have a few people here who enjoy the story, but I feel that a majority don't because it concerns Lincoln getting murdered.

Lastly, I just feel ashamed of this story. After going through several complaints, I realized that my story wasn't any different from other AUs based on the episode. In those stories, Lincoln either runs away, kills himself, etc. I was trying to branch out of that general idea, but for all my efforts....I feel ashamed of my story. I tried to make something that I was proud of, but I'm not. Even when I try to do happier stories, I still get criticized for unfortunate implications. I have some ideas for Chapter 7, but I don't know if I should even bother anymore.

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