Thread:Gumball2/@comment-30953185-20171226202550/@comment-4618045-20171226210152

This could get long

Leni is ranked first in the list. Why is that?

I don't have a crush/infatuation with Leni, but unlike that of other characters (who I do care about), my concern with Leni is personal. Her ditziness reminds me a lot of myself. I know I have a mind filled with ideas, thoughts, and desires, but all too often my actions/words just cannot further them. There have been times where I just can't find the right word and when I speak, I just sound awkward, confusing, or people assume I don't know what I'm talking about. Or when people ask me a question, the words can get jumbled and I assume they're referring to something else. My answers, naturally, don't give people a good impression. And actions? There'll be times where I'm trying to find something and I just end up wandering around, looking like I'm aimless. These are common struggles I deal with. I feel like people underestimate me or feel obligated to take my hand and walk me through life even if I have a good idea of what to do. It can range from annoying to disheartening.

And that's when Leni comes in. I see this character that acts and sounds like me. Just seeing those similarities is enough to draw my attention to her. I pay close attention to her actions and I find myself contemplating what she must be thinking. I figure that if she's like me, she has an idea of what she would like to say or do. Sometimes she can get her message across while other times her mental quirks create a different outcome. I hear things she says (like her line in "A Faire to Remember") and if you switch around the names, then the plan makes perfect sense. When I talk, I constantly have to wrangle with words and clauses in order to make noise and things like subjects and pronouns can get jumbled up.

I have reason to believe that her situation closely mirrors mine and I admire not only for that relatability, but for her other features (her kindness, creativity). I’m attached to her. I feel like I owe it to myself to give her the same level of respect I hope I could someday acquire for myself.

Does that make sense?