User blog:IronRaphRa/My Side of the Story

I want to start by telling everyone that I'm not committing suicide; that like was from a video game that I feel applies to my situation. My apologies if I offended anyone. I am, however, going to take a break from the Loud House Wiki so I can try to improve my personality. I don't know for how long, but right now, I feel like I'm not welcome here.

Right now, I feel many see me as this arrogant jerk who obsesses over destroying Lincoln Loud. And maybe those people are right, I do tend to go overboard. I don't mean to be malicious, I just think that Lincoln needs to face more consequences for his actions, or some people just overreact when he's only in a few scenes in an episode and something bad happens to him.

I know I said I'm a good fan, but that was only because I have a habit of being too hard on myself. It's a problem I want to fix, but I don't want to think of myself as flawless because I know I'm not.

If I critize someone, it's only because I think they have potential. I think that Harburton's fanfic where Lincoln gets amnesia has potential, but it's ruined by the meaner sisters - nicer sisters trope. And if you think I'm harsh, you should see how tough the online trolls can get.

But one think I must say is that I don't think I'm that bad when it comes to those two fanfics everyone remembers me for. If you think I'm bad, you haven't seen the worst of the worst. It's not that I know people don't like them, there are dozens of negative comments on them, PTTFW roleplays, fanfiction failures, and others talk about them behind my back and I hardly say anything. I only defend something if I think I have a right to. If I was that bad, many of you wouldn't have a moment's peace.

One of the reasons I asked why others may have a problem with me liking Lincoln is that people always come to me about it. I've seen other people write negative comments about other characters and I don't say anything, nor do I see others saying a lot about them. But you say something bad about Lincoln and people complain at you. That's why I got annoyed about it.

Take fromt his what you will. Call it self-pitty, but I feel like I have to say this. There's only so many times you can turn the other cheek to people. But I guess it's good-bye for now and hopefully, I'll be back with another fanfic in the future. But I can at least promise that I'm never going to write another Lincoln torture fanfic again.